So theres this guy....

.... and he's kinda stealing my

I've began to realize that its ok for me to open myself up again to a man.  Not in a physical sense (no problem in that dept!), but emotionally.  So the guy that had stood me up, I gave him another chance. Im glad that I have. Ive found myself thinking about him all the time.  He's done a dang good job for making up for what all he did.

I feel like a school girl with a crush

I have yet to say it out loud to him and our friends, although Ive said it to myself, but I really do like him.  He's grown on me... alot!  At first I didnt want anything to do with him.  I figured Id give him my number and see what he wants, I can shoot him down, and he'll leave me alone.

soooo not what happened

Ive been captivated by his attentiveness in me. He adores me. He's told his folks all about me. Im just like 'wow'. He has let it be known that there will never be a want that he wont attempt to fill for me. If he has it so do I. And as much as an 'independent woman' I am, I cant help but imagine just sitting back and letting a man take care of me for once in my adult life.

I need to stop lying to myself and let him love me

He's supposed to call in a few. And Im not ashamed to say Ive got the phone ready and charged =)

....I pinch myself just to see if Im awake...

Sometimes I sit back and wonder is all the stress I go through at work really worth it? Not saying I dont like my job, cuz I do, but there is so much stress and I feel like I cant handle it sometimes.  Some things and/or people really irk me, and I wish I could just start from scratch with some of these people.  People think they can take advantage and do what they want, but Im bout to start hurtin some people's feelings.  And either two things are gonna happen...  they are either gonna straighten up and do what they are supposed to do or they're gonna get fired or quit.  Either way, Im fixen to weed out the ones who could care less about their job.  Im not here to be anybody's friend.  I didnt come into this job knowing any of them and Im not here to make any friends.

God is truely testing me and I refuse to fail on the behalf of ignorance from others

I figured today would be a rough day for me.  Like I predicted, once I let the other girl take the reins, she pretty much threw them back at me. Im sitting here trying to get her to "learn by doing" and she is not taking the opportunity.

Im not impressed.

not at all.

and it think its time to let my voice be heard to the next chain on the link.

If she is supposed to be a relief and ease some of the workload, why do I feel like Ive got ten times more??

gnite! (350a - here I come!)